A big fan of being in my body, I use it as a gauge for everything. It’s so fine-tuned at this point that any excitement, angst, love, longing, fear or discomfort cannot hide nor be denied. This complete consciousness of my inner experience is exhilarating & makes decision-making all the easier. Embodying energy as I go, I know “the flow” when I feel it & there’s no better place to be. But, sometimes, it’s one singular, very scary, sensation.
I periodically see someone whose male energy nearly unnerves me. I have no idea if he’s aware of the electricity or the effect it has on me. Rather than over-analyze “what it means” as I can oh-so-easily do, I now surrender inside to the full force of it. I was all a-twitter for hours the last time it happened. An exercise in vulnerability, it brings back big memories of having one so powerful rock my little world.
Clearly, there’s some soul thing going on with us; time shall tell what’s to come (or not) of that. For now, I know only this: I must put my heart where my mouth is. As I continue to ask the Universe for available, intimate, reciprocal, “ribbon in the sky” love, I gotta be ready NOT to run when it shows up. Maybe he’s simply been sent to call my bravery bluff?
But, thanks to my bother-in-law, I’ve got Stevie Wonder singing along in my opening-up endeavors. His Song Review’s perfect music for heart homework:
Happy Weekend! Here’s to love, laughter & all that energy out there! Can you feel it?
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